“It’s the game of life. Do I win or do I lose? One day they’re gonna shut the game down. I gotta have as much fun and go around the board as many times as I can before it’s my turn to leave.”
If you are into keeping track,
you’re correct in the fact that I am not very good with journaling while I am traveling. This time I even brought my Chromebook along to ensure I had the platform I needed to write quickly and just about anywhere. Unfortunately, I was busy having fun. Yes, it was a work trip but I was having a blast. We would complete everything we needed to during the conference and then it was time to spend the evening with the ‘team’. During what I suspect just about every conference there are events that vendors will put on in the evening. These include casino nights, free buffets and drinks. Yep, you read that correctly, there were a TON of free drinks everywhere.
In my past environment, there would have possibly been some degrading or pressure to have a few beers or a quick drink here and there. I was very impressed and thank those that were around me, they said nothing except a question here and there about why I wasn’t drinking. I was able to go out and almost every night stay out with everyone and enjoy myself without drinking. Now, this was completely different than I have ever been used to. In fact, normally I was the one in the morning ill and not ready to do shit, except plan for that night.
It was a great test.
Not that I think when trying to remain sober you should test yourself, I did, however, think this past week was a good test. I was around supportive people but that only lasts so long. My personal fortitude not to drink had to be there or I would have cracked and cracked hard. Looks like I went another week and passed my own test. Bringing to the front of my mind, what else am I [not] doing that is holding me back or not testing me even more in other areas of my life. It’s true I’m not searching out a venture or business but shit, I think my mental game is close to the top third of what it could be. So maybe now is the time to jump and test me in another area.
My ankle still hurts
In another area to which I have been journaling about, my ankle still hurts. I have no idea what I did but I was not able to run the entire week I was gone. For missing this I feel terrible and feel like a real turd. I do know in the back of my mind it’s best to rest my ankle and then ease back into running. So, today [Day 40] I am going to try and run 1 or 1.5 miles to test out my ankle and see what happens. More on that later tonight on my daily post.
I have not been running, had fun with my friends and co workers, and am still sober making that over 1 month. If you are new to my story it might help to start at Day 0 and work your way through and if you have any questions or comments leave them here or on Twitter .
It’s also time for me to get busy testing myself in other areas to push myself to be as uncomfortable as the first time at an all you can drink party, carrying around a glass of water. Thanks to all my friends and family who have supported up till now and I still cannot wait to see where this journey brings me.